Everywhere I look I see God moving. I see Him moving in Toronto, Ontario, through coffee hours, food banks, and various other fellowships both within and outside of the church. I see God moving in Perrysburg, OH, where my sister and brother-in-law are in the youth ministry.
I take heart in knowing that my sister and her family, and my mother-in-law are being blessed through their dedication to spreading God's love to others. But then I start to wonder about my own dedication to the Lord. I admit that I have not been faithfullly in The Word in the last few months. Actually, I'm not quite sure when I fell out of The Word, but recently I have started reading the Bible again more faithfully.
Even so, I don't see God moving here. Let me say that better. I don't feel God moving around me. I'm positive God is moving here, but where I'm concerned, I don't feel it. I thought I did feel God moving me in one direction, but I hit a bump in the road. This could just be a mere stepping stone and not a stumbling block, then I began to wonder if it was my own desires I was feeling. Maybe it wasn't God at all.
I feel so lost. I need some guidance, but the more I delve into The Word, the more confused I am.
I guess I just want to know that I'm not alone. That this is common and I will eventually understand or know what I'm suppose to do.
Thanks for reading my ramblings.
Six years old going on 25!
15 years ago
1 comment:
It is so common! Especially when we get caught up in looking after our families and everyone else, neglecting ourselves! The one main constant is to remember that as you continue to read and seek God's presence with all your heart, He will come and meet with you...don't give up! For He is Faithful even when we're not!!
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